so Im pretty sure today wins the award for the most boring day of my life, I have no one to talk to and no one to do anything with!!! I cant seem to escape that horrible feeling of being alone,and maybe that ties in with the boredom. You know that dumb expression that always seems to over dramatic to EVER be true, that one where someone describes themselves as being "bored to tears". Well for the first time in my life I can say that,that statement in NO way seems to be the least bit over dramatic. At least for today. You ever wish you could escape that feeling of being totaly empty inside? That stinging sensation in your heart that just wont go away, I guess being bored causes you to overthink,or maybe bring up some old feelings you have stored away or attempted to cover up for awhile. When your reallyyyyyyyy bored it feels like every feeling or thought you have ever had suddenly pops up in your head,like your mind is making some attempt to keep you busy. Well no offence to my brain but I would rather not be reminded of those things I have purposely stored away! Because it would be so amazing for once in my life to go an entire day without worrying about things or feeling sad/upset. Is it so wrong to want to feel good and happy for one day! I dont know at this point its starting to feel like something that I will never be able to accomplish. So thank you boring day for bringing up all of this emotional crapy stuff!!!! Thanks a heap!
Sincerely
JH
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