All i have to do is dream

You know what I hate, that absolutely horrible feeling you get somewhere in between being asleep and awake,that feeling of knowing you are on the abis of total awareness,inturn ruining perhaps the most amazing dream ever. You know the dream Im talking about, the one where everything is perfect and all is good in the world, it paints a picture of your future self having everything you have ever hoped for and more than you could have ever expected! you know the amazing dream job and someone in your life who you actualy can tell loves you and cares about you!! and for that moment everything is perfect until you reach that abis and realize there is nothing you can do,and that being fully alert is just around the corner. So then you wake up only to realize that everything is back to normal suddenly perfect is gone and boring and sad come back into the picture. You know everyone assures me that there is someone out there for everyone but I dont know if I believe that, for me its really hard picturing myself with someone who really cares about me or loves me. Because I have come to discover that in my life I tend to love people with everything I have and all that has managed to do is leave me heartbroken because they dont do the same for me, so the idea of someone finally feeling and doing the same for me seems a little bit to good to be true. But im hoping im wrong im praying that I will meet someone who cares for me like i care for him. Then maybe that amazing dream I keep having will be my reality,oh I can only hope. But until that day comes Im gonna keep dreaming!!!